Fall Final!

"Madness in great ones must not unwatched go"

"Madness in great ones must not unwatched go". In the modern times, as in 2008, you could use that on many. For one thing, the president. Another could be Americans. Back then, it could have been Adolf Hitler. People thought he was great. The moral of that was, his madness should not have went unwatched. However it did.One other thing I see how ever will seem very small in comparison, but I would add the scientists to this statement.

I believe the same could be said for the scientists because, they are considered great and yet, some of their work go unwatched. I believe that, while they are merely just curious, their experiments could effect us all. Just recently, we were all worried about the world ending because of their curiosity. In some ways it could have been very interesting, but the fact is, they were willing to end the world because of their curiosity.

On September 10, 2008, scientist were going to start up the LHC. It is also know as the Large Hadron Collider. What it would do was smash protons together with cataclysmic force. It would hopefully show them how the big bang was created and how it worked. They would also be able to see deeper into matter than ever before. However, it was considered dangerous. The scientist were willing to risk this. They were willing to risk the world all to see deeper into matter. Like it was more important than the lives of children and other people. It was all in all, a very selfish act.

The good thing is, that it went well and that the world did not end. And while it could have been just a scare, it was still there. Point zero chance or not, it was there. And they, the "great ones" had done it. Sure they were being watched for this one experiment, but what about the others? After this experiment, no one seemed to care. They could be doing anything right now. Something very dangerous and they are going unwatched. Perhaps it was because everyone thinks that because they are scientist, they know everything. They know what their doing and so it was OK, whatever it was they were or even are doing it must be OK.

I think that while King Claudius was not a very good man, he was very clever. And that statement proves it. I think that we should listen to that statement and not just allow the "great ones" to do whatever it is with uncaring and unconcerned eyes. They could be doing something very dangerous and we may not know. Or maybe, I am being a paranoid person. Either way, the statement will stick with me. I will also still believe that the "great ones" should be watched a bit more closely.

Step family

You know how in movies, they step parent is always evil. Well, in my opinion, its true. How do I know? I have had a step dad. Let's just say, our relationship is nowhere near good. Or even civil for the matter. Its like all step parents are evil.

I would say that perhaps its because they are from another family and they have this type of resentment toward anyone or anything that was in the life of your biological parent before them. Maybe they think that the main concern should be on them and with them. That they are the best thing that ever happened to your parent and that's the way it will always be. That is merely just a hunch.

I know that for a fact, when my mother met my step dad, he was the nicest guy in the world. He would takes us out and it would always be where I wanted to go or what I wanted to do. He was always getting me things and very understanding, now I'm starting to think that he did that just to get my mom to love him all the more. That he knew that I was my mom's #1 and that if he got me to like him that she would too. It worked sadly enough and I now regret it.

Thanks to my step dad, my mother now lives in Mexico. She's an alcoholic and is doing everything she can to keep her 2 children, my step brother and step sister. She doesn't want my step dad to take them from her, she wouldn't be able to bare it. Sadly enough, I'm no longer her #1. I'm her #4 on her list, which is OK but I can't help but keep blaming my step dad. Funny, how referring to the last essay, "Madness in great ones must not unwatched go" comes in handy. It fits right in here. They all thought he was great and that he could do no wrong because he was great. I'll admit, I was that way for a while too. However, once I saw the signs I knew, and it was very hard to convince the others of this. I still don't think I have. The only one I've convinces was my grandmother and that is simply because she has seen it first hand. That seemed to be the barrier that I could not pass. Getting someone, even just one person to see things from my side. It was hard but I made it and that's all that matters now.

While I say these things, I realize that not all step parents are evil. You see on TV today, all these movies and shows where the step parent and child have a great relationship. More so than the original parent before them. They would happily take their last name and have no trouble calling them mom or dad. They are like their best friend and its nice to see. But sometimes I think its because there are so many movies out there that show the step parent as bad and the world which is becoming more strict by the minute is trying to make everything in life look perfect and great. They want to hide the harsh reality that not all children are blessed with amazing step parents. One day, perhaps the image of evil step parents will be erased from television and movies all together. Maybe all the media.

Perhaps I see these things, step parents and all, the way I do because I got the bad end of the stick but that doesn't mean that others have to. Maybe there are a lot of good step parents out there, but I'll never know. However, when someone speaks of a step parent, I will always picture Cinderella's evil step family and the fat cat Lucifer.

Am I a thinker or a doer?

Apparently, I am a doer, even though I have never gotten into trouble. To me that involves thinking...Contemplating things, not just doing. But hey, I don't see things like Karah and Amanda do. So, seeing as I needed a picture I figured the Cat in the Hat would be perfect because...well he kinda just does things, of course, afterword...HE GETS INTO TROUBLE!!!! (I don't!)

I think I'm a thinker because I would feel bad if I said the wrong thing at the wrong time. Or even embarrass myself by doing something thoughtless. I'm too chicken to get into trouble and disappoint the people close to me so I play it safe by thinking things over. Of course that always gets me into a zoning out mode where I picture myself doing things had I not thought about the action first. I think of people's reactions and I think about all the ways I could control it and/or save myself. Of course, then I get carried away and just start flat out day dreaming.

The thing I would like to change the most about myself is the fact that I think too much and I come off a boring so often times people don't like to be around me. I wish I was fun and spontaneous and I wish I knew how to have a conversation with someone without thinking too much about it that I decided not to so then we just sit in silence. I would also wish I didn't day dream so much and that I would just do some of the things in my day dreams. However, I feel they wouldn't care anyhow, so I don't want to waste my time. Other than my looks, there isn't much else I would want to change about me because I don't know how it would be. What it would be like and all that jazz.

Guess I'll just stick with the Cat in the Hat...he is kind of cute.

No secrets

Have you ever noticed that now days, parents tend to be "nosey". Or in other terms, they tend to "spy" on their kids. And of course, the kids HATE it! They think that they should have a right to privacy. Yet, they never seem to notice that their careless behavior sometimes earns it.

I understand that sometimes parents could in some sense, step over the line. There is a term for that however, called "Over Protective". Its where they have absolutely no trust in their children what so ever, and better yet, their children did nothing to deserve this behavior. I came form one of those families. I remember being in 3rd grade and asking to spend the night at my friend's house for a slumber party...My mother had said no because she didn't want boys to be there. As the years progressed, I finally bugged her until she came up with, "Its not you I don't trust, its the men in the other houses". My grandmother finally told me that, behind my back, my mother had been telling everyone I couldn't be trusted. Yes that really sucks. Especially since I couldn't have done anything wrong anyhow, seeing as I could never and WAS never allowed out of my house unless she (my mother) went with me.

However, there is also the type of parent who is more concerned with being their child's friend than being the parent. Their kids are reckless (most of the time...not always) and disrespectful. They think that because their parents don't care that it doesn't matter. They could fail school or do drugs, have sex, get involved with violence and never break a sweat. Their parent's don't care so why should they. Who ever tries to teach them differently, they don't matter anyhow. However, then there are some kids who are mature enough to try and build a life for themselves, regardless of if their parent's care or not. They get good grades and work to get enough money to move out and have a better life.

In my opinion, I think its ok for parents to spy on their kids at certain times. Kids need a chance to make mistakes to learn from it. When you spend your whole life sheltered and monitored, you don't know what to do with yourself once its over. Once you have their freedom your either scared out of their wits and hide in the dark or go hog wild and get into a heap of trouble. I think that parents should be open minded and not so harsh so that if their kid(s) make a mistake, they won't be afraid to come to them. You know like the dream mother daughter relationship off the TV show "Gilmore Girls".

I guess what I'm trying to say is that while its ok to spy, there is a certain extent to that. Like if you have a feeling your child is making a very big mistake or you think they are in trouble. That's what parents are for. To step in and teach their kids. To get them through things. But, that doesn't mean tearing their room apart inch from inch, going through everything they own. Going through their backpacks constantly. I've been through that and I feel like those things are uncalled for.

But I'm just a teenager...

Being Thrifty...Or not...

So far, the recession seems to finally be clicking something in people's heads. Things that they/ we never seemed to be getting back then. Back then, we had the money, we spent it carelessly. And now...easier said than done.

As the year proceeds, its clear that the money end of the economy is not in the best shape. People seem to be noticing it too. People are losing jobs or getting paid less. People losing their homes. Things that we never saw coming. However, there is always the saying that the future always repeats itself.

That said, people or starting to get wise. They are spending less, buying things they need rather than what they don't need, and even then, they attempt to find the cheapest way to do that. Said task isn't easy. I know from experience and let me tell you, its tough. There is always the chance that one little penny could off set us so much that...Well we don't like to think about it. I say this because it had not been too long ago that my grandmother and I were in some kind of financial problem. I don't remember the problem, just her words and her defeated expression.

I had told her that we would get through it, that we always had. I guess I expected her to agree but she was silent, sitting in her seat of the car at a stop light. She sighed, not looking at me but answered in a tired tone.

"We won't always." She had said and it took me by surprise.

If anything, the one thing we avoided talking about in our house was the economy. Sure we listened to the news but we had gotten into the habit of dismissing it, pretending that we weren't part of that. That we were just on the outside looking in. It had been that way simply because we couldn't handle speaking of it. It was too hard and made both our moods sour. We would fight for days. I still worry about it but again, we attempt to distance ourselves from it.

Sometimes shopping can be fun. We don't do it often , but my grandmother is like me. Perhaps that's why. The money tends to burn a hole in our pockets. And yet, even though we spend all of it, we spend it wisely-To the best of our ability- on clothes that are a bit more cheap than say $74.95, when instead we could buy two pairs of pants, a scarf and a shirt and some other knickknacks with that money.

I guess you could say the fire in the world's pocket is dulling now to a warm heat just enough to let you know its there but also just enough to put in the back of your mind for later. I have no doubt that there are still people out there who spend money furiously and I also have no doubt that when the financial crises has dulled, the flame in the pockets of the people will relight its self and burn once again. Yet I could be wrong. I'd like to be proven wrong, but I won't be too disappointed if I'm proven right. Its just something that happens.

Life goes on.

Advice....Take it or leave it.

When I was younger, I often spoke without thinking. Well, I thought about it sure...However, I always felt the need to speak my mind. And even then, sometimes it was more of how things were said.

I had that one problem that a lot of people seem to have. Not thinking before I spoke. And even then, I didn't think it wrong to say. I never meant it the way it came out was my situation. It was either the tone of my voice or how it was worded but it could have been the most HARMLESS thing ever...Yet I still got into trouble. My mother had always told me that I needed to think before I spoke . And I used to get so mad because I never meant it that way. Though, I still try and stick to it...Sometimes by just not saying anything at all...Kind of like the whole, "If you don't have something nice to say, don't say anything at all." Yeah that saying.

But then I would say something I deemed innocent and BAM! We would get into a great argument over what I meant and what she "knew" I really meant. It would get me so angry that I would pop off with, "And just how do you know what I'm thinking?" Of course you know that never sets well with parents. So of course I got into trouble. And then I would get yelled at for being so argumentative. In my own opinion, there is a difference between defending one's self and arguing because you want a good argument. So the next advice, I attempted to take, and yet, for some reason, it never shows.

Yet the advice that I still keep with me is from my old therapist. She had asked me one day, "How do you know it was wrong?". Naturally I was like WHAT? What is this? Some type of quick question. She continued however, the wisdom that I knew she had somewhere in there (seeing as she wrote a book) sparkling in her eyes. "Tell me how you know its right or wrong?" So I told her of all the law makers and all the older people who...Well they just knew these things...And then she laughed and asked, "And just how do they know which is right and wrong? And the people who told them, its just something they created. We don't know for sure, which is right and which is wrong." I was silent after that, eager to hear more. " We all do the best we can," She continued. "Whether its right or wrong in other's eyes, in our own, its right. We feel it inside of us and sometimes its not always the best choice, but it was the right one." And it really got me thinking. She had continued. "At the end of the day, can you rate your self a 10 out of 10? Did you do the best you could? Do you feel like you did the best you could?" I was speechless. "And if so then you did do the best you could."

After word, I had started looking at things a bit differently. I mean I still, in my mind, rate things as right or wrong, but who can't being brought up that way? Yet, even if its wrong, I still try and think about it. For one thing, I hate my mother, and even after all the wrong things she did, she thought, in her mind, that she was doing the right thing. So to her, that's all that matters. Whether or not I or anyone else thinks so.

A tale of revenge.

Ok so here's the thing. I'm not a great story teller, but I'm going to attempt to tell you a story anyway. Its a story that isn't a BIG deal but its something that I know enough facts about to be able to tell clearly and truly.
It was when I was younger. I wasn't a very mature thinker in some means, seeing as I was in 3rd grade. You know how the mind works. Anyway, I had just gotten into trouble for what? I really don't remember. What I do remember is that my mother had threatened to take something dear to me. I'm pretty sure it was Miko, the stuffed animal that I had gotten in boomtown. I don't know why I still keep the blasted thing at times seeing as the person that got it for me is a person I don't really like. Nevertheless, I keep it and I still love it.
So she had threatened to take if from me knowing that I loved the stupid thing more than anything. I didn't believe her, so naturally I looked at her with one of those looks. The ones that tell someone that you don't care, nor do you believe them, and yet innocent enough to deny any foul looks from. Naturally, my mother knew that look, I mean who do you think I got it from? So she took it. She took it and put it up so I couldn't get it and told me that I wouldn't get it back until my attitude changed. Who knew how long that would take? I mean it wasn't like I walked around with a mirror...Ok so I did know when I did it...Sometimes. Anyway, I got mad and stomped to my room. Perhaps I was mad at her for more reasons than taking a dumb stuffed raccoon. I was mad at her for making me move AGAIN! For moving because of a guy AGAIN! I was mad that I had to leave my grandma...I was mad that I couldn't see my best friend. I was mad because I hated school and in my eyes, that was her fault too. I was mad because of all these things and she was just as happy as could be. She had all of her things. It wasn't like I went into her room when I was mad at her and took her things. And so it was then that I decided to give her a taste of her own medicine. She took something I loved so I would do it back. I had to think about what it was though. Something that I could get rid of so she could never find it or them...Something small enough that I could take discreetly and yet, something that she loved...And then I had it. The answer was right under my nose. What was she doing right then? Why, she was outside smoking. What did she seem to like doing? Smoke...Not only that it was bad for her...I could even use that as an excuse...And so I did it...I threw her cigarettes away in the outside garbage can where the dumb truck would come and take them away.
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That night I got into so much trouble I would rather not even discuss it.

And then there was one.

So things are going down hill for Detroit. That must really suck, but one has to admit. Foreign cars are the top sellers. They have more gizmos, more gadgets, more gas millage and everything else. And sure, American cars aren't too shabby but I remember thinking about it. And as I looked, more people seem to be driving the rival's cars.

So far there has been a request from General Motors and Crystler are going to go to Washington to ask for a bailout. Also, next year, it says that Detroit will have built 2.2 million more cars than they can sell. They are suggesting that they file bankruptcy for reasons such as state franchise laws.

I think they should do this because, asking for a $30 billion dollar bailout...We already have so much on our plates right now that that may not be in the best interest. And besides that, as the money seems to be declining, that means people won't have money for gas or cars themselves. The who will buy their cars? They had asked for so much money and it would go to waste...That's just my opinion of course. Also, they really could merge together and form one. Like Chevy and Ford. It wouldn't be so bad. I mean it would for those people who drive Chevys and buy those dumb bumper stickers that claim they hate fords and visa versa. However, I think they'll live.

Getting kids interested.

In my own opinion, I think that getting kids interested and getting them to want to go onto 4 year college is good. However, I believe that they should go when ready. Like taking two years at Shasta College or something and then transfering. I think its important because then they could have more possibilites in their lives. Yet, I don't believe in pushing kids to do something they don't want to do. While I think its important that they get a good education and go to a good college, I only feel its right that they should have their own say. I think they should make more 4 year universities around here so that some kids won't be so frightened to leave and they can be inspired to stay home yet still go to a good college.
According to" http://www.cpec.ca.gov/FiscalData/CACountyEconGraph.asp?D=HSGrad&C=45 " around 89-90% of Shasta county has atleast graduated from Highschool and while that is good, it may not be enough. Sure it can get you a job at a fast food joint or whatnot but to actually persue a career or have a great life...One would need more. Take my mother for instance. She only recieved her High School deploma and that was it. Her job had been working in a home for the mentally disabled and she now had major back problems. We suffered a lot of financial difficulties and there were times when she said she wished she had gone and did something with herself. And my grandmother, in her 60's is giong to college. But its sad how long it takes people to realize what they truly missed out on.
As sad as all of this is...I think that there could be a difference. I mean, no I wouldn't want it to be like Japan or anything. (They are really strict.) But there are many things that could be changed and the college getting the kids interested is a start...A few years from now, it could end up changing a lot of lives. Helping a lot of people out and keeping them motivated and interested. Not, "Oh I can't wait to get out of school, yeah I'm just going to work". Right now the difference in the state average and Shasta county average of just high school deplomas is 79-80% so there is a few numbers of difference but not by much.

Bridge to nowhere...

It is, to my understanding, the bridge that was supposed to be created for the purpose of in a way, connecting Ketchkian Alaska to the other parts...Making it considered somewhere in some people's eyes. It had been promised to them for 30 years. However, that bridge never got finished. I figure its famous for that exact reason...Well, so I figured. Ketchkain is considered "nowhere" and the bridge was going to "nowhere".
So far, the writer seems to have a problem, not only with the costly end of the issue, but Governor Sarah Palin. On how she was apparently bragging about how she "stopped the bridge to nowhere". The write seemed to not want to be on the first page of anything, but instead, be left in peace away from the media and whatnot. They didn't like the public lashing that they got and that Palin had "shelved" their project by sending press releases and not "telling them to their faces". Seems to me like they are a close community. I was in a way, convinced that what she had did was wrong and they she should have been more open with her community. The way it was written, it sounded a lot like what a sibling would say.

Zakaria's Premise

As the economy falls there are different strategies that people think of to try and save us from what is to come. The things we have only read about in books. The things that we mentally find our selves saying, "I'm glad I was born now instead of then". Things that we try to not worry about, hoping it will pass over....We are trying to prevent that. To keep away from the horrors of "back then".
One of the strategies is that we simply buckle down on what we spend. Don't buy what isn't needed and isn't necessary.
That strategy is very reasonable in my opinion...Hard yes, but sometimes in life, we have to do things we don't particularly want to do. And we need to do this, because at the moment, we don't have the most money. And I believe his plan. He has a point.
"Amid all the difficulties and hardship that we are about to undergo, I see one silver lining. This crisis has—dramatically, vengefully—forced the United States to confront the bad habits it has developed over the past few decades. If we can kick those habits, today's pain will translate into gains in the long run."
And that is true.
However, there really isn't much one can say about it. When you believe in something, often one finds it hard to explain certain things. I often find myself having that problem. I agree whole heartedly though, what with the saving and consuming less. And I know that I'm going to be one to struggle with that. I'm honestly one who would spend hundreds of dollars on a purse. Bad yes, but I have that habit and it needs to stop in order to fix the oncoming problem we are encountering.
Guess that's all one can say, seeing as everyone has their own opinions.

The Worst Ads on TV

So today, the article that I read had to do with advertising prescription drugs on TV. The article was written by the famous writer, "Stephen King". The question is, do I agree with what he stated in it? So far, it seems as though Stephen King didn't seem to like the sound of prescription drugs being advertised over the TV because of the way people will just take them if they think it will make them better, not thinking about the side effects. And I agree with that. I mean of course in my own opinion I don't think I would so much mind them being advertised and all its just that they should also state the side effects. It wouldn't hurt anyhow. Let them know when they can take it, how it should be taken, if they should really pay an attention to the side effects or not. But other than that...Its pretty simple. They need to advertise their products to do business just like any other company that sells things. How else would people know about it.

Is this a replay of 1929?

Lately, here in America, we have been dealing with quite a bit of financial issues. There was talk about the depression, the recession and other things like that. Its scary to think about that, hearing about all of the homeless people back then...For people who have very large and vivid imaginations, you can only guess what they're thinking. And its like, you tell your self don't worry about it, you do more to distract yourself from it but now, everywhere you look, you hear about it. Its everywhere and you can't avoid it. Better yet, its hitting close to home!
They say that the recession could be a repeat of 1929 and then there are those who say that back in 1929 "The beast" was different. I mean, I don't quite understand how, other than we have a bit more security with the insurance that we have now-a-day. However, that uneasy feeling in the pit of one's stomach still remains. There is the dancer of losing one's home and/or job...And I know this sounds stupid but I don't see why they just can't print out more money to save the day! If we're really that desperate I mean. But still, I know the system doesn't work like that.
My opinion on it all varies. In my own opinion of my opinion, I don't really have one. That's simply because I don't know that much about it, or maybe I did but I don't remember it. Or there is also that little possibility that I don't want to know about it. Its scary and I wasn't always so glad that it was in the past.
As I read on, I got the impression that Samuelson's point is to get the idea of the bailout through to people who don't see to agree with it. I also think that he really believes that the bailout will help. Not like fix it over night or fix it to where we will never have to worry about it again, but enough to help what little bit it can.
In these words, "The Great Depression resulted from the perverse mix of a weak economy and government policies that magnified the weakness and that were only partially neutralized by the New Deal. If we can avoid a comparable blunder, the great drama of these recent weeks may prove blessedly misleading," It pretty much states how they think the depression back then was different. I don't understand it but they are trying to give us confidence and beggars can't be choosers.
Anyhow, I'm really unsure what else there is to say about this. I do my best to keep my mind free of all these things whenever possible.

Drinking

How to fight drinking...
Well, in my opinion, there really is no way to fight it. It is clearly their choice of what they want to do with their bodies. I've learned that from experience. And not that I'm all for it but you really have to think about it. Most teenagers, whether its a law or not, are drinking.
As for lowering the drinking age, I think its a sight for them. They will start thinking that if they act a certain way that we will just give them what they want. They will act worse and they will get in more trouble because to them, it looks like adults are giving up. So no I don't really think its worth it.
Then again, there are some that really and truly get offended. They think that they are old enough and responsible enough. Some are and some aren't. I do however, believe that some adults do neglect to see that some teenagers can actually be mature and responsible. But that does not mean they should get to go off and get special privileges.
Of course, then there are some that will through the famous line at you. The, "But I'm not a little kid anymore!" or, "Its my body not yours! I can do whatever I want with it!" And sure, that may be true but in my own opinion, I don't think they are ready. And like I just heard around the room. "They do it anyway, they'll just get in less trouble." That's true too.
But if it were up to me, I'm not sure what I would chose if I had to chose. Because, either way, they are going to drink, and either way, there's a down side. The up side of not lowering it, less 18 year old adult/minors drinking. The down side...More 18 year old adult/minors will either try to rebel or break the law. The up side to lowering it...Maybe they will take it as a privilege and try not to drink so recklessly. They might try and be sophisticated and mature about it. While the down side may be...They may think that they will always get their way. They may not take it so maturely...And they may just drink like idiots.
And as for the sex...They do it anyway. Again, that does NOT MEAN I think they should bend to their will but...Open your eyes...Its going on RIGHT NOW at this very minute. And it's their bodies and their fault when they bring a child into this world. And hey, sometimes it changes people for the better. It all has to do with common sense. If you have enough common sense to save yourself, then that is wonderful...If not...Its your own choice.
That's really all I have to say.

The Price of Our Addiction

In my own opinion, I think that we seriously have a lot of work cut out for us.

As for slowing down on all the driving...My grandma and I haven't quite done that yet. We drive from here to there and then back again and then somewhere else and then home and we're going at it again. We both have busy schedules. And no I don't really think very many people have changed. As I see it, they say they aren't going to pay for their gas and then they do it anyway. They may stop a little here and there but that's it.

Close to having a solid energy plan? Maybe. I don't know much...All I know is that we may be a bit close with the Prius and all. It gets what, 44 mpg? Something like that. And then those little cars. Those electric cars. Those are cool. So maybe we are.

As for what we should do? I really have no clue. Maybe make the energy saving plan come a bit more quickly? That's about all I've got. I mean, because its not like we can make our cars run. And I can't say to not dig anymore gas and save it for emergencies because...Being stuck at home all the time...That would suck! Well...I guess we'd get used to it. People would probably buy more TVs and Computers.

Still my granny and I have tried here and there. We get those energy officiant light bulbs and we turn off lights when they aren't needed. We're gone a lot so we don't really need to leave anything on. But that just goes back to the gas prices.

But I can see a future like the Jetsnos... All electric and...future like.... But if you think about it, it kind of makes you wonder why their houses are up in the sky and everything flies...Is there a reason for that? Some hidden message?

Well anyhow, I just hope things get better...Maybe we could start carpooling more often as a change for now until something better comes out.

The LHC

The LHC...

In all honesty I think its dumb. The whole concept of it! Especially since its something that scientists can live without! I mean even if we weren't going to die and the whole black hole thing may not happen, the fact of it is, they still decided to do it for their own selfish reasons.

Seriously? What do I care what the earth and anything else looked like after the big bang?

I guess it just makes me mad that they are so wrapped up in their stupid project and their own little fetish! Tell me is that not selfish? So no, I don't think its worth it at all.

Even though it would be cool to see it, its not going to kill me if I don't see it...They could find another way. Heck! If it were possible, I would say, why not just go to another planet and do it! Then they can risk their own lives and see what they wanted to! Win win situation!

King Leodegrance

So this, everyone, is King Leodegrance. Well, at least that's what came up when I typed in his name on google image.

He's the father of Guinevere, who married Arthur. Or visa versa.

This guy, from what I read, had served under Uther Pendragon, taking over the round table once Uther had passed on. Though, for a nice big marriage present, he gives the round table to Arthur.

King Leodegrance was one of the few people who accepted Arthur when he became King. But, being nice back then wasn't always easy. It came with screaming people, burning things, and invasions. Yes, the poor guy was invaded by a rebel King named King Rience. Then again, being nice also means loyalty. That's why Arthur came to King Leodegrance's rescue.

What the heck is a hero?

A hero...

Well let's see...I don't really have any heroes but I can name some people that are close to heroes.

My definition of a hero varies of course. They can't all be the same, because what fun is life when you can't be different. However, some of the characteristics that a hero could have is that he/she is one who never gives up. One who is strong and cannot be defeated! (Gotta love Melvin!) One who wants to make people happy, who fights for what's right or alt east tries to make a difference.

One of them that I would consider a hero is Walt Disney. I mean sure, he created Mickey Mouse and all, but still. Think of all the little children he made happy. He created cartoons that helped the imagination grow. And I think he made a big difference. Reason being is, do you ever wonder what it would be like without Disney things? All the little girls and boys that he made so happy. And in a way he inspired them. Picture what it would be like without all of that. He gave children the inspiration and wills to dream. To love life and prove that there can be a happily ever after. (Even though it may no happen when you want it to.)

Second on my list would not just be one person but a group. Many people who had done nothing but give to people in need. Some of those people being heroes themselves, just needing a little boost. This group of people ask for nothing in return but smiles on other people's faces. That group would have to be the Extreme Makeover team on ABC. It amazes me how much they give. How they don't stop, and how they just keep going, wanting people to experience peace and happiness. Also, I guess you could say, they try and held people reach their happily ever after. They work as hard as they can to do as much as they can for a family ever week. I haven't seen them ask for anything not once. Even Ty who had his appendix removed still wanted to be involved while in a hospital bed. Now that's saying something.

And last but not least, I have to mention my grandma. Who's been there for me since I was born. Taking me in when she didn't have to. Spending so much money and so much time with me that we could both just scream at each other. Dealing with my mother and even myself. I used to hate her so much because I thought that it was her fault that my mother had left. Now I realize that it was just her trying to protect me and make me happy. She didn't want me in the environment that my mother lived in. My mother only wanted me out of spite and who was there? My grandma. She's given things to lots of people without them even asking. Sadly, she hasn't gotten any of it back but she could still be considered a hero.

I would call these people my heroes and all but, well I don't feel anything when I say it. There's a difference between saying it and meaning it. But had I felt it, these three choices, in no specific order, would be my heroes.

Beowulf's Lesson

Before we go any further, let me say, this creature,
<---------- reminds me of a evil grimlin or something. Of course when I was told to find a picture of Grendel...This...Thing looks like a Grendel, and I am quite proud of it!
So...On with the blog!

Beowulf...Actually, at first I didn't intend to even read it. However, as I read it, I learned that it wasn't so bad. Throughout it I learned of a man's courage and how far determination and love for those close to one can drive them. When I say loved ones I mean (If I'm correct),
the men who were killed to the monster. The monster being Grendel. Or maybe it was his mother. (That one I'm not quite sure on!)
What I got from it was, that he learns that he could be strong no matter what. He also learns that he can't fight on his own. (That he isn't superman in other words.) I got these from when I read about him defeating Grendel's mother. It was when he lost his sword, his determination and realization lead him to a victory. The realization being that he could still fight anyway.
I read on and ran into something else. During the fight with Grendel, there were other men there to fight with him.To help him out. Also, before he died one man stayed and helped kill, or rather, (In my eyes) killed the dragon, it just went to prove my point.
Though really, now that I think about it, maybe the last one was the true lesson all along.
I did find however, that I was often confused throughout all of it.
My hat however, goes off to him. Reason being, even though he was old and ageing, his determination was still strong. He held no fear and he could truly be called a warrior. He was brave and courageous! And let me tell you, I'd be scared out of my wits! I was amazed that he was still able to defend his kingdom. That and he died with pride. He didn't die somewhere petty, he died where a warrior in their eyes should have.